#462: You Like Struggle

The most potent realization is that you like and choose to struggle.

Otherwise, why would you not stop it?

Why would you not abort your self-sabotage?

Why would you not dissolve your self-conflict?

Because then you would have all this time to live.

For a human, living is scary.  

Struggling is familiar. Struggling feels like home.

No matter how nonsensical it sounds, non-suffering is too novel and foreign.

So next time you feel bad when struggling, pause and ask yourself:

What do I secretly enjoy so much about this pain?